September 22nd 2017, I proposed to the love of my life
Two years later minus a day, I made that lover my wife
Forsaking others with my sisters & my brothers that's tight
Within my circle, then took off to recover our flight
Towards a island paradise for 10 days
Made love until the blood nearly burst in our membranes
And then we came home to a conviction of cop who shot a brother
In his home without an Amber alert, now I wonder
What it's like to be white, shoot up a school, squeezing glocks
Til the screaming stops, then you're seized by cops with being shot
That be the plot, 'cause being black, it ain't that hard
To go down to 20 rounds in my grandma's backyard
Ain't that complex to lose your snap at being quarterback
When you take a knee, you're ungrateful, please no more of that
Police protest that's messing with our bottom line
While tomorrow's sign of Columbine's our shot to keep some cops in line
Thanks to the obsession with weapons
They say's protecting the brethren, except for church where they're threatened
Our kids? rocking demons like Jordans, question survival
But instead of bibles, you want me to pack a rifle
In public schools, I need room for God's truth to tell
Instead, I'm handcuffed like black and brown future selves
With more 'Superfly' fantasies than Future sells
With soundtracks to which they scheme, murder and shoot for wealth
It's a one way ticket to a future cell
As you can you tell, clout chasing is sending all of our youth to hell
Before Wakanda, no kid out here wanna be T'Challa
Straight facts, they wanted to be 6ix9ine with face tats
And even then, Killmonger they more related to
Based on where they're from, what are kids with rage to do
They ain't Joe Budden or Zach De La Rocha
Machines they're against will have 'em zapped for they quotas
A Masters diplomas, Bachelors ain't a bonus
Strip ambitions, bow down to "Massa", not owners
Now I gotta be a reseller to get this house
Cause gentrification's the master plan to kick us out
Like it was nothing
With every blessing, there will come an interruption
Can't be comfortable in life
With interruptions coming like drone strikes

Yeah, I find myself mentally turned inside out
I'm by myself readily turned inside out
And I can tell I'm physically turned inside out
And I'm in hell, spiritually turned inside out
I find myself mentally turned inside out
I'm by myself readily turned inside out
And I can tell I'm physically turned inside out
And I'm in hell, spiritually turned inside out

Yeah, it's why I need my "Kerux", in spite of hesitance
To strike up convos, plus he's guarded like the President
Protected leader of a ministry of excellence
That's heaven sent, so why is trust not effortless
Leadership gets side eyed, why not trust their safety
Well it's crazy, last pastor I trusted? He nearly raped me
Too much right? But imagine this bully, a threat
You wake up to him standing over you fully erect
Now at that point, you're way beyond fully upset
More like: Lemme blow his face off and pull for his death
Give into "R.A.G.E." like the song I wrote about it
And yet my life in Christ is so astounding
I pray for the victims of Zacharias with the memories than hound them
That Jesus covers them in his counseling
That's sounds 'Crazy'? I know, but I ain't Cee-Lo Green
I'm trying to lift you out the Dungeon, Family, see those dreams
Come and get this soul food cooked by Elohim
Cause when those interruptions come, then the ego leaves
Like it's nothing
With every blessing, there will come an interruption
Can't get comfortable with life
With interruptions coming like drone strikes

Yeah, and I find myself mentally turned inside out
I'm by myself readily turned inside out
And I can tell I'm physically turned inside out
And I'm in hell, spiritually turned inside out
I find myself mentally turned inside out
I'm by myself readily turned inside out
And I can tell I'm physically turned inside out
And I'm in hell, spiritually turned inside out

Physically turned inside out
Spiritually turned inside out
Mentally turned inside out
Readily turned inside out