A Beautiful Mind: Crying Out To You ft. Octavia Roberts & Franky Payne

from A Radical Interruption: The Motion Picture by CONQUEST

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Inspired by the tragic passing of his musical heroes in Chris Cornell of Soundgarden and Chester Bennington of Linkin Park by suicide, CONQUEST initially wrote the "demo version" of 'A Beautiful Mind' in 2017 and released it in limited quantities in 2018. Recognizing that song had greater potential to turn into what it eventually became, he teamed up with producer Roberto Torres aka Top Rank, ace guitarist Franky Payne and his wife & gifted vocalist: Octavia Roberts to create what 'QUEST now calls a "signature song" in his discography.

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I'm crying, I'm crying
Crying out to you
And I'm frightened
That I'm dying
And I can't speak to you
And I don't wanna bring you down
And then you run away
And I don't wanna be around
If you don't wanna stay
Please stay

Don't wanna play games with the throne, when I'm so far gone as a fire breathing dragon
From Kylessi thinking that deeply as a choir breathing passion
Of Christ with a leader with a mask on that Future didn't rap about
Isolation got you one step closer to a 'Chester Bennington' tapping out
Lack of identity, trapped in doubt, full of demons that need casting out
Ain't nothing to laugh about when the devil got your number, the exact amount
When you like men and you're masculine and you can't talk to your pastor then
You isolate yourself wrapped up in all the guilt that got your tragic end
And you never saw it coming like Trump in office, guilt is a currency, come up off it
Trapped in your head like Kelly in the closet with life full of promises of empty deposits
And you don't know who you can turn to, STD like how it burns you
Like Usher's Confessions buried & paid off when public perception's the ultimate trade off
Personal trainers got no weight off the hate that erases your race like Adolf
Chi-town shootings on a holiday weekend, I pray God takes me away from the deep end
With all my secrets, I have kept them sound to the point I that I need to keep a weapon down
From my head, Boyz II Men 'under pressure' now, our beautiful minds don't wanna let you down

I'm crying, I'm crying
Crying out to you
And I'm frightened
That I'm dying
And I can't speak to you
And I don't wanna let you down
And then you run away
And I don't wanna be around
If you don't wanna stay
So please stay

I speak for the bio-polar and manic depressive, not sober addict, obsessive
Soldier with a madness aggressive, not over panic that threatened
The hope and aspect of heaven, know that he's grasping from brethren
Not cold, whose path is blessing, work through his past and accept him
No light, when darkness consumes everything in your whole life
There's no promised land, you are Moses, you won't see it, so tight
Cause you feel that it's not fair that you're not there
All the while God got a purpose, but you're burdened wishing you're not here
An "American Horror Story", don't need to "FOX" to see it
When you've been raped since you were nine, you clearly got a grievance
ADHD, disobedient, live with demons, they stay tweaking
Dealing with it as they act a fool, we write them off in our after schools
We tell them: don't bother me, don't interrupt my life
Just be my favorite pop star, though you cut yourself at night
I don't care why you're stressed out, just shut up, be my wife
But your wife's been trying to disappear, she really needed prayer
When she's saying

I'm crying, I'm crying
Crying out to you
And I'm frightened
That I'm dying
And I can't speak to you
And I don't wanna let you down
And then you run away
And I don't wanna be around
If you don't wanna stay
So please stay
Please pray

I'm crying, I'm crying, crying out to you
And I'm frightened that I'm dying and I can't speak to you
And I don't wanna let you down
I'm crying, I'm crying, crying out to you
And I don't wanna let you down
And I'm frightened that I'm dying and I can't speak to you
If you don't wanna stay

I'm crying out to you
I'm crying out to you
I'm crying out to you
I'm crying out to you
And I don't wanna let you down

credits

from A Radical Interruption: The Motion Picture, released April 28, 2023
Written & performed by Jason Andre Roberts aka CONQUEST
Produced by Roberto "Top Rank" Torres & Jason Andre Roberts aka CONQUEST
Co-Produced by Richie Acasuso
Additional vocals performed by Octavia Roberts
Recording Engineer: Richie Acasuso at Lounge Studios NYC
Mix Engineer: Richie Acasuso at Lounge Studios NYC
Mastered by Cody Shallow

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CONQUEST New York

The 2012 album “Radical Departure” marks a new musical chapter for Brooklyn based, Trinidadian born emcee/songwriter CONQUEST as an artist & missionary musical evangelist. CONQUEST does unadulterated hip hop music that's mainly East Coast in style & influence with an alternative & soul influence that will be recognized as either ‘Christian hip hop' or 'progressive hip hop made by a Christian'. ... more

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